Well, once again, I sit before my computer, apathetic and deserted... Ryan's mad at me for who knows what and he thinks he knows what I'm going through but doesn't.. then we got on the whole thing about him making it seem like his life's always so perfect.. that's been bugging me for years.. I've always wanted in on his life, but it's so hard to get him to be real with me...

*sighs*

Apathy.. i sucks... I don't have any feelings or emotions right now.. I'm just empty... I feel so numb..

For once, I'm too numb to even lift up my hand out of my hell-hole and beg for someone to save me...

Well.. what a waste of an entry... I sort of miss having feelings just for the sake of writing..

o well..

Blessed ventures,
~*~Markie~*~