http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/ Broken Wings Fly Wed, 28 Dec 2005 13:45:22 PST http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2005. Writing Poetry Spirituality http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/archive/99.html Wed, 28 Dec 2005 18:43:41 GMT Well, I stumbled back onto this site, completely forgetting about it until now. I posted a response to a girl on my September 17th (2004) entry just today. I didn't even know it was there. Here's what I posted, "Hmm.. I just found this comment today. I'm a bit late, aren't I? If you read on, you'll see what happened with Kris. In short, he cheated. I don't know if I mentioned it on here either, but there was an instance where he wanted to have sex and I, of course, did not. So yes, being with those who aren't of the same beliefs hurt. However, a lot has happened in the past year. I now... (more) http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/comments?id=99 http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/archive/98.html Wed, 07 Sep 2005 15:47:43 GMT After nearly a year, things have definitely changed around for me--check out my new blogs... this one on blogdrive and my xanga one Thanks, you all. =) http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/comments?id=98 http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/archive/97.html Tue, 23 Nov 2004 04:59:53 GMT I posted an entry about an hour ago, but it didn't go through. Seth IMed me out of no where. It was horrible. I'll post the conversation later. I called Tyler right after Seth blocked me several times (all on different screen names), and I was crying. I wanted to die. Tyler made me promise not to do anything stupid, and I agreed. I just did something horrible, but it felt so good. Obviously, I didn't end up killing myself, so it's fine. I want to be released from my pain. But I promised. Now left alone to my thoughts, I keep reminding myself that I promised... (more) http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/comments?id=97 http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/archive/96.html Sun, 21 Nov 2004 12:53:59 GMT God, please help me through today... God, I need Your help... Out of all days, this will be my hardest... please, God, just help me to forget for one day... He doesn't exist. There is nothing special about today... it's an ordinary Sunday... *tears fall* God, please help me... are You listening to me? Please save me... I keep begging and pleading for Your rescue, but, God, maybe I've completely missed it or it just hasn't come... I need You though... right now... let me make it at least until tomorrow... Dying would be so easy, God, but please don't let me... I... (more) http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/comments?id=96 http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/archive/95.html Sun, 21 Nov 2004 04:00:22 GMT Well, once again, I sit before my computer, apathetic and deserted... Ryan's mad at me for who knows what and he thinks he knows what I'm going through but doesn't.. then we got on the whole thing about him making it seem like his life's always so perfect.. that's been bugging me for years.. I've always wanted in on his life, but it's so hard to get him to be real with me... *sighs* Apathy.. i sucks... I don't have any feelings or emotions right now.. I'm just empty... I feel so numb.. For once, I'm too numb to even lift up my hand out of my hell-hole and beg for someone to... (more) http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/comments?id=95 http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/archive/94.html Sat, 20 Nov 2004 05:33:48 GMT I found this through one of those quiz things where you find the first letter of your name and all that... surprisingly, this one actually fit.. lol (besides the "sexual freedom" stuff lol) "You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no holds barred. You are all consuming and crave someone who is equally passionate and intense. You believe in total sexual freedom. You are willing to try anything and everything. Your supply of sexual energy is inexhaustible. You also enjoy mothering your mate." I... (more) http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/comments?id=94 http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/archive/93.html Sat, 20 Nov 2004 04:58:32 GMT I've decided that I will not give in to death's calling for my life. I'm going to suck it up and live through this Sunday. Sunday, of course, the 21st. Though it would have been our anniversary, I was thinking today... I would trade anything for him. I would do anything to have him back in my arms. But then I thought about it. Sort of like that movie, Time Machine, where he goes back in time and tries to change his fiance's death so it never happens, I want to go back and change things with Seth so it would never happen. But then I wonder, if just like in the movie, where she would die... (more) http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/comments?id=93 http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/archive/92.html Fri, 19 Nov 2004 01:36:01 GMT Because my friend Megan suggested it, I got help from a professional today, although it was only our school guidance counselor (one of the five)... *time passes* Wow.. speaking of her... lol.... she just called me. She wanted to talk to my mum, which was good, but she started asking me how I'm doing and stuff, which was really nice. It shows that she cares (at least someone does [besides Meg]). Anyway, I've been keeping my thoughts during the day in my alphasmart (this little computer we're given to use for the school newspaper)... I wish I could hook it up to this computer and... (more) http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/comments?id=92 http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/archive/91.html Wed, 17 Nov 2004 03:40:13 GMT I want to go back to a year ago.. no.. a year and a half ago, and warn myself never to even talk to that tall guy named Seth. If I could see that he was a jerk in the beginning, then I wouldn't have spent a year of my life worshipping the ground he walked on.. He would never have broken up with me, causing me to fall into the deepest depression I've ever known, and I wouldn't have gotten sick like I did. Yes, I'm over the sickness, but because of the sickness, I have ten days worth of homework to make up. I have to read half of Gulliver's Travels tonight for AP English Literature, on top of... (more) http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/comments?id=91 http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/archive/90.html Tue, 16 Nov 2004 01:17:27 GMT Ok... I'm pretty sure I know who made the site for me.. but hopefully I'm right, and if not, then whoever the heck you are, you're creepin' me out... very thoughtful, but well.. you seemed to have been reading my blog like crazy finding that stuff.. *worried, concerned expression*... and well.. if I know you, then it's all good.. but if I don't........ Well, it'd just be creepy... Anyway, here are some avatars I've made... I made one for a friend, and the others are just gonna be there, so you can take some if you want (do NOT direct link tho... and o yeah, do NOT claim them as your... (more) http://theboundandfree.blogdrive.com/comments?id=90